Motherhood
After I had my first son, Cairo, my heart was so full. It felt so complete.
But I found out your heart literally expands with every child. I didn’t know I had the capacity to love this much. To be this selfless. To nurture and care for two beautiful children the way that I do.
My sons matured me. They pushed me to be a better me. To finally step outside of my comfort zone and push my potential for greatness. Not for myself. For them. See, sometimes it’s hard for me to work up the nerve to do things for me. If it were up to me I’d still even be procrastinating on launching this blog . Waiting for the “right time”. Buttt my sons give me a greater drive. A stronger desire and motivation that I didn’t have before. Because their lives, and their love means more to me than ... me. And that is how deep real love is.
I never knew a love like this before. I love my husband beyond words. He completes me in ways no other man has. But, my children ... and I’m sure we hear this from so many mothers time and time again, but i didn’t understand the depth and the meaning behind the words and the emotion until I became a mother myself ... but my children mended, restored, and ignited a fire in me that I didn’t know was possible. This love runs deeper than I could ever imagine. I would do any and everything to protect them, provide for them, and give them the best that I possibly can. And the best me that I possibly can.
No, I won’t be perfect and I am learning to accept that - but since I became a mother, I’ve been triggered to be a better me for them. And even if I mess up - because I am seriously learning every single day - if I simply love them unconditionally, that is the greatest peace.
Motherhood is crazy. It’s challenging. Yet so rewarding. It’s emotional. It’s messy. It’s bliss.
It’s…amazing.
And I would not trade it for anything.
And at the end of the day, my babies don’t care if the house is a mess, if the laundry is folded, if the dishes are washed, or even if i was able to take a shower that day. All they want is mommy. My time, memories, laughs, experience, and love.
🤍 J. Leigh
